I haven’t done a PND update in a while, ive had a whirlwind last few weeks moving house and things so I haven’t really thought about how I’m feeling- I haven’t had time.
But now that we’re settling in, I’m struggling. I’m finding it hard to be on my own with Alfie. He doesn’t listen to me and I feel like I’m constantly repeating my self, he seems to be doing things to annoy me lately.
I don’t want to play with him, I would rather sit and have a cup of tea.. I’m getting really irritable and impatient with him. I know I sound like an absolutely awful mother.
I’ve been trying to get out the house, going to the park and exploring our new surroundings but I just don’t feel like I want to be outside. I grin and bear it but I feel like everyone’s looking at me especially when alfie is screaming and running off for no reason at all.
I’m in need of some support but feel like I have none at the moment. The thing is. I’m quite used to feeling like this now and I know it won’t last forever, it’s just so rubbish when I’m in that place. I will keep thinking positive and I’ll be fine.
Just got to hold my head up high and keep smiling.