Currently i live with my dad, stepmum, 2 sisters and stepsister in my dads 4 bedroom house. Without going into it; i can’t cope living here anymore. I’ve tried to take it on the chin and get on with it but after nearly a year of it, i just cant do it anymore. I kind of hoped that the problems would just go away but i know that i cant ignore them and i have to sort them.
Don’t get me wrong I’m grateful that my dad took me in when I left my boyfriend but it’s too much living here with my son.
I’m ready to live in my own place with Alfie and i have been exploring my options through council housing and private renting, I am currently on the list for council housing and on band2 (I don’t know have a clue what they all mean) – i bidded on 2 houses last week for the first time and bidded this week again.
I’m hoping and praying that i wont be waiting to long for a house, im finding it hard mentally and im constantly upset while living here. Mine and Alfies belongings are within four walls, he has so many toys and our room never feels tidy as theres so much stuff. Im such a clean freak and its hard on me to be surrounded by everything we own.
Alfie hasn’t been sleeping very well recently and has been in bed with me constantly since before christmas. There’s not enough room for a double bed in the room that we have so we have to squeeze into a single bed together and I can not sleep well at all. As if just suffering from mental illness wasn’t bad enough then I can’t even sleep. I’m constantly awake during the night.
Please keep your fingers and toes crossed for me. I need all the luck I can get at the moment.
Thank you for reading