I’ve been blogging for roughly a year and a half now and within this time i’ve met some lovely friends and its also changed me as a person. As you know i suffer from Post Natal Depression, i suffered for 10 months before i got diagnosed with this and the doctor told me that i was showing signs of having PND
I burst into floods of tears. If it wasn’t for the help of my twitter and blogging friends i would not be here today. I’ve always got a shoulder to cry on and i know im not alone in my fight with my mental illness.
My view on myself has also changed- we are all human. We make mistakes- sometimes we just have to let go of our mistakes and not continue to dwell on them when they’re no longer an issue. Its easier said that done but we cant live a life of regret and worry. We say sorry for our mistakes, what more can we do? We all try our best as mothers and fathers, we cant get everything right- its all trial and error. Blogging has shown me that no matter what happens im my sons world. He relys on me more than i rely on anyone so when i do get down, i pick myself back up and remember theres a little boy who looks at me and thinks im amazing, im his mummy and he knows i try my best. He loves me no matter what mistakes i may have made in the past. My son is my main priority and its all for him.
I feel more confident in myself- before blogging i was shy and constantly said i was fat and ugly. There are a lot more people in the world that are worst off than me so who am i to be walking around with a face like a slapped backside when they still manage to smile and face everyday with a fighting spirit. So many inspirational people that i have met through blogging and have taught me life is for living, you only live once so make it a good one.
And thats exactly what im going to do- make sure my life is brilliant, not only for me but for that little boy that calls me mummy!